“Can I leave?” is a line from my last column. Not many would say that to a possible multiple sclerosis (MS) diagnosis. But by that point, I wanted to be anywhere else.
I tend to handle diagnoses well. I knew nothing more could be done for me at that hospital. My regular doctors in Calgary, Alberta, would be contacted, and from there it would just be more appointments.
So, my family and I went on our planned vacation. And I finally got to eat at Olive Garden.
The following week, I had an appointment in Calgary with a specialist. I didn’t have a definitive diagnosis, so I saw my neuromuscular specialist, not an MS specialist.
At that appointment, I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. They won’t know what type of MS until I have a second MRI — in which they inject me with dye.
Apparently, I was supposed to have had that in the first place. (It’s always funny when doctors ask why you didn’t have a specific test, when it was a doctor who ordered the procedure to begin with. It’s not like you get a say in these things.)
We all know which one I’m hoping for.
But you can’t get too attached to hope. I tend to stay neutral until I have the facts. From there, I just handle it.
When I went into the hospital, I had to cancel my first book signing. It was a bummer. Ultimately, I rescheduled it for this month, and the bookstore Indigo was very understanding of the situation. (Yes, I will eventually update you on how it went.)
I also had to quit my editing job because I don’t have the energy to keep up with it anymore. I was a little sad about that, but I knew it had to happen. I had been at the job for a year, and it taught me valuable information that allowed me to become a better writer.
Spinal muscular atrophy has taught me to adapt. Although two extreme diagnoses are a lot to handle, you learn to move on. You adapt, find ways to do things you love. And sometimes, you have to give up on things.
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