I’ll be transparent: Living with a chronic illness sucks, regardless of the disease you deal with. It’s not easy learning to navigate life while sick, and unfortunately, there is no rulebook to study.
I can only speak for all the difficulties that come with having idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis (IPF). I received my diagnosis in early 2016, and since then I’ve been trying to navigate life with lungs that are gradually failing me as my disease progresses, which leads to a lot of unpredictable scenarios and emotional reactions on my part.
Living with any chronic illness means you will have both good and bad days. Each morning when I wake up, I try to be hopeful that day will be a good one, and that I won’t have any respiratory issues. These issues can range from coughing fits to needing to go to the hospital for increased oxygen support. I never know what each day is going to bring, which complicates regular aspects of my life, such as maintaining a career or a social life.
My oxygen needs differ from day to day, often without warning. Sometimes I need my supplemental oxygen, and other times I don’t. As of late, likely due to the high humidity of the summer weather, I have needed it more often than not. When I don’t have it on, people often ask why I am not wearing it.
My ability to cope with my illness is also unpredictable. Some days I can openly tell others about my disease and manage the day-to-day difficulties of living with it, while on other days I dissolve into a puddle of tears if someone looks at me the wrong way. Unfortunately, I cannot always control this (it can be a response to medication changes or steroids) and I seek to reject judgment and instead find compassion, understanding, and empathy on those days.
I have become pretty good at withdrawing myself from social situations when I feel emotionally unstable so that others don’t have to “deal” with me. However, that isn’t always possible because I still do full-time work.
Lastly, my ability to complete physical tasks fluctuates. I can often get groceries on my own, but on other days I am so exhausted and short of breath that I can’t get down the stairs alone. I take my dog for a walk in the evening when the weather cools down, but sometimes I need to use a wheelchair at the end of a long day because my legs and lungs are so tired. One of the most frustrating things about IPF is that no one can see how I am feeling inside, and I often feel misunderstood.
What are some of the things you can no longer predict since being diagnosed with IPF/PF?
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